Found an old poem I wrote Its just amazing to me how far i have come.
Siting in the dark,
alone with a pen in hand, thinking of something to write
there is something dark stirring in my heart,
something breaking inside me, the sweet white of my kind heart is wilitng,
it is turning black,
the ink from my pen falls down onto my paper,
i look up my eyes meeting the mirror,
I see my face, I don't regonize it
my eyes are filled with watery hate, with anger.
they drip black down my cheek,
like the ink, like black turning in my heart,
there is something dark here now,
I'm gone.

Doubts

You think you can look at my relationship and tell me
How wrong we are?
How young we are?
How much better I can do?
How much better he can do?
How long we will or wont last?
If and when we should join our lives together?
Do you really think it is okay to judge us?
Well you aren't right for that,
There is only two people who know what is best for us,
That is me and Garrett,
Some of you doubt how I much i love him,
Some of you think this is all just a "teenage joke,"
I will fight for him until the end,
I can't even begin to say how much I love him,
How much I care for him.
Yes he was there for me in my darkest hours,
But what people don't realize is
I was there for him too, I helped him too,
We are there for each other
And we always will be,
He is my best friend, He is my love, my soul mate, and my FUTURE husbend.
It is so hard to write your story,
when everyone is trying to rip out all the pages before they were even written.
So please, before you look and make another judgement..
think of the damage you do? think of the hurt you cause our relationship,
This is our story,
I will keep putting in new pages, even if you find it okay to burn it.
I love my Garrett,
We will get married,
We will be happy,
Our love will last forever,
This is us,
So before you Doubt, or judge,
We will show everyone wrong,