Found an old poem I wrote Its just amazing to me how far i have come.
Siting in the dark,
alone with a pen in hand, thinking of something to write
there is something dark stirring in my heart,
something breaking inside me, the sweet white of my kind heart is wilitng,
it is turning black,
the ink from my pen falls down onto my paper,
i look up my eyes meeting the mirror,
I see my face, I don't regonize it
my eyes are filled with watery hate, with anger.
they drip black down my cheek,
like the ink, like black turning in my heart,
there is something dark here now,
I'm gone.

Doubts

You think you can look at my relationship and tell me
How wrong we are?
How young we are?
How much better I can do?
How much better he can do?
How long we will or wont last?
If and when we should join our lives together?
Do you really think it is okay to judge us?
Well you aren't right for that,
There is only two people who know what is best for us,
That is me and Garrett,
Some of you doubt how I much i love him,
Some of you think this is all just a "teenage joke,"
I will fight for him until the end,
I can't even begin to say how much I love him,
How much I care for him.
Yes he was there for me in my darkest hours,
But what people don't realize is
I was there for him too, I helped him too,
We are there for each other
And we always will be,
He is my best friend, He is my love, my soul mate, and my FUTURE husbend.
It is so hard to write your story,
when everyone is trying to rip out all the pages before they were even written.
So please, before you look and make another judgement..
think of the damage you do? think of the hurt you cause our relationship,
This is our story,
I will keep putting in new pages, even if you find it okay to burn it.
I love my Garrett,
We will get married,
We will be happy,
Our love will last forever,
This is us,
So before you Doubt, or judge,
We will show everyone wrong,

The beauty of this love

There comes a time in life, where you have to make a choice.
This choice could have changed my whole future. That simple decision could have ruined everything,
But i will never regret this choice i made,
it's wonderful,
it saved me,
knowing you would be there,
always would be there,
you loved me with every imperfection,
I made the choice to be with you,
you to hold me,
to love me,
And now I'm so very Surronded,

So lost in the beauty of this love 

An introduction to my new blog, :)

So for awhile now i have been contemplating on whether or not to make another blog,
I already have my adoption blog, the beauty of disaster, but i wanted something were i could just really express myself at.
Basically going to make this my online diary.
and for any of you who would like to read my experiances, and stories that i post on here.
mainly on here, im going to be posting about my relationships and how i feel about them, this is a place for me to vent, and share my feelings thoughts with everyone.
I love writing and nothing better tells how im feeling then the entrys I put in my Journal.
So welcome to my diary :)
 I hope you grow to love my writing as much as I do.
If you haven't read my adoption blog, then go check it out.